sore!

feeling damn sore!

the roster suck
and yes

it makes me hate sister even more!
i wished i could kill her

everything that i deemed to be beautiful
has gone with the wind

the initial roster Yappie planned was so brilliant!
i already made arrangements to go ouT!

AND

the finalised one just aint HUMANE!

They made use of me
and

now they do this to me

sounds serious but hey!

when they need my help
i agreed w no hesitation!

when they need my service
i change my shifts

when they call me up last min for night shifts
i accept

i mean
i feel its unfair to me!

when they need deployment
i go with their decision too!

forsaking whatever initial plan i had!

well

this is UNGRATEFUL

I despise her despicable behaviour!
which do not deserve any form of respect from me!

i dun mind leaving
to place where ppl dun underestimate my capability
and appreciates me

and
treat me with respect
and fair and equally!

Zoo!

The trip today to the zoo was fun!
i haven been to the zoo for so LONG!
And

its afterall a nice place
even tho it was so humid!

We brought Anita and Ting's mum around
and

I think Anita sure enjoyed herself!
We wanted to get her a souvenir from the shop
but couldn't find sth nice
therefore we developed a photo taken by the staff there
with the parrots and gave her

it was nicely framed and she says she wants that

18 BUCKS!
DAmn lor
Not heartache over the amount we spent on her

but more like
what a gd way to earn our money!
no wonder zoo is so RICH!

and yup we visited the MURDERER WHITE TIGERS!

HIAK HIAK HIAK




this is a footage of the accident

and these are the involved murderers






after which

today's Choh Hoon's bday

HAPPY B'DAY ONCE AGAIN

we had a meal at New York New York AMK
and she said the spagetti taste so good
and even ask choonz not to try so much as it wasn't really a big share

and guess what
she found a metallic like foreign object in it!
it looks like those we use to scrub pots and pans!

and we handed to the staff who took NO ACTION

But our dear friend still continue eating HAPPILY MAN!

But in the end we sort of brought it up to the manager
as the two whom we confronted were not that tactful

the b'day gal actually suggested another packet take away
instead of a new plate or a waiver!

but we got a waiver la...







here she is with her long awaited CAKE!

We are GOING TO the ZOO~

I Am going to the ZOO tmr

with my Anita, Yo-Yo and Ting Ting and TT'S mum

haha
i wonder how the experience will be like
1st time going out with em

Since Anita is new to S;pore
and she barely tour s'pore yet
other than Lil India
and the Lion where water come out of the mouth as quoted by her!

and coincidentally
three if us will be on nite
and we wanted to bring her around so much
plus she happened to be off

and TT's mum came from China!

haha

EXCITING!

Pls do not rain!

and YAY
FINALLY got the FAST FORWARD CARD!

Can get discount from TOPSHOP!
Combined pourchase with EB at vivo just nw
and we had a filling JAP meal at SUshi Tei!

Oiishi!

i'm losing it...

i am not sure whats wrong w me...

haven been able to control my emotions well lately

esp irritated
and annoyed
and angry
and upset

today

well

there is no need to go around telling ppl what i have done and all
however
why do people wanna find fault over such minor issues

the deployment pisses me off to the core

i got along well with the staff
and i completed the 5 days
only to be very unhappy with

Managements
and

Mankind!

No point being nice
being helpful
cuz no one appreciates u!
for all u do!
i dun even have someone who protects me
if thats the case
i dun mind leaving
to somewhere else
where others appreciates me for who i am
for what i do
and acknowledge perhaps just my presence?


and i guess what tick me off
was i took over a mess

which
i bet she dunno whats she is doing the ENTIRE MORNING FOR SURE
AND still act like nothing happens

the most annoying part is
she looks on as i explain the meds to pt's son
when she actually DISCHARGE THEM
and

well
i am SPEECHLESS
i dun wanna sound like a bad guy
telling tales of her
or broadcasting about her inefficiency

BUT SHE OBVIOUSLY need to do sth abt herself!

She has to wake up
and learn a lesson

i bet some students who are here for a few weeks can outdo her in some ways!

arghhhhhhhh

i noe i am not the only one who cant stand it!
but

sigh

all these unhappiness makes me dread working
makes me hate some people so much

i detest her sickening face
thinking she is doing everything for us
in protection of us

FAKE!
FAKE!
FAKE!

feeling fat...

fat IS on everyone's mouth
esp GALS

bUT

DAMN IT MAN
its like bugging me
for like at least 10 yrs!
i haven gone dwn since i was 16!

fuck man

after i have gone back to work,
i piled up a good 4-6 KG
hell man

yes its crazy!
i am desperately seeking safe and effective diet plan!

HELP ANYONE?

sigh

2008 is ending
i think its crap to say my resolution is to slim dwn
i probably lost interest and hope since it din wrk for a gd 10 yrs!
but then again
i wish i can lose some
as i fear my TAIWAN TRIP
i will put on ALOT!


i am damn unlucky lately
if i am doing eye
i will admit hell lot
or discharge hell lot during my shift!

shit rt!

ass

but

DEC is coming
alot of anticipation
Not young anymore
but

still LOOKING forward to xmas
nt count dwn parties la
but more of warm get-2gether

i am pondering if i shld go for a swim
but unlikely
woke up w a damn painful knee

ARTHRITIS VS RHEUMATISM?

Thats signs of aging!

hurry hurry

DEC IS A GOOD MTH
FESTIVE MOODS
BONUS
EARLY PAY DAY
WARD CHALET

TAIPEI 2009!

my own voice!~

and his

The most memorable times i can think of in 2008 for now

quiet...

parents went M'sia for a short trip
no one's at home
i woke up late
had instant noodle
and watched Cable

all's quiet
and bored
w/o my mum dozing off on the sofa
waking up suddenly and insist the tv's too loud
and her constant loud voice
and repetitions of events she insist being funny

i miss her!

after someone intro-ed me to KOKA noodles
i crave for instant mee more frequent
and i would choose this brand in particular

i'm falling ill
the discomfort at the back of my throat irritates me

come to think abt it
and w some exaggeration,
i haven rested for half a mth

had worked 10 days till off day post nite
thinking its a good 2 days
i was deplyed
and off was cancelled
and worked another 5 days

till today
phew
but with a failing health

and worse still
unappreciative superiors
who aint helpful
and spread untrue and unkind remarks

anyway
thankfully i survived the good 5 days
working with new ppl
and uneventful and pleasant 5 days
except the bloody sisters of both wards!


undergoing a phase where serious thoughts as to certain decisions
which may change one's life
i am still unsure
and i am still apprehensive
but
after all said and done
hurt is inflicted

i am almost giving up i think

haven been looking forward to work nowadays
because of something
somehow
someone i guess

i am glad i aint the only one feeling it
but well
am in no position to comment afterall

i hope
something will change
someone can change
somehow will know

that this is not tolerable...

tmr's another off
had initially planned something w guaz
it seems like we are down to two

gonna forsake e plan
i may just stay home again for some sleep

messed up life!~

all my hopes and dreams smashed
the fairytale i wanted to create remains a fairytale

i wished i can be like Cinderella
like i said
i wished...


now its back to square one
i have to start all over again
this time around

alone...

hate~~~~

i am rather pissed
word of mouth kills

tho i am nt so sure if its true
but i certainly did not do anything wrong
fuck em!

totally irritated
if u r not sure whats going on
dun anyhow say

damn it

i feel damn angry
my sister is not doing much
furthermore suggest such cheap and embarrassing idea for us to be deployed
in return we r like a laughing stock to others
for only 1 patient

and the damn sister there insist we take cases
ok la
i will do

but there r ppl telling me dun take
dun do
cannot do

there the sister says
ur sister nv tell u meh

then my sister says
of course u cant be nursing 1 patient
being deployed u can take cases
but not fair

fuck em la
no one is being helpful lor

hate them
really
to the core!

i am already trying my best
if u dun think i am
i dunno what to do

and best still dun send me there!

poor MANAGEMENT
Dun be a bloody slave to the damn dr lor!

if u think ur arrangement is gd
or brilliant
i am ashame man

boo!
to hell with all these shit i am enduring
fucking tired
and

i cant wait till fri comes

the staff are fine
however i hate the management
even my own!~

ITS MONDAY~

DREAD
DREAD
DREAD

Giving in to old prof~

sigh
so not looking 4ward to work the entire week!
yup
gonna work in a new env for 5 frigging days
where
the objective is only ONE PATHETIC KID!

I mean i wld love to nurse kids
once in awhile

but not just 1
and

having to get used to new env 4 like a week!

FB is so slow nowadays
my pc?
or its the no of ppl logging in?

sianz


craving for some good and tasty beer

and some chips to go along!

things dun feel right lately
i hope its just me

went Holland V
to a pet shop to view the dogS!

gosh

I WANT A TOY POODLE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

Its so cute
the brownie ones looks like bear!

gosh
and so tiny
i dare not carry so i asked eb to do so!

but its damn costly
2500 k!!!

i want it!

BUSY!

I hAVE been extremely BUSY!

Tmr's my 10th day straight working
initially i tot i wld be enjoying 2 off days

but
change of plans
i am gonna be deployed to w55a
sigh

i haven got much choice...

my two off days next week will be changed
and i wont be able to help in the micro surgery conference!
shitty man

i have been busy lately
i just started to to be in charge

a very new thing to me
so busy
even tho it may seem like an easy job!
i have to help a lil here and there

and
i hope i did an ok job
and people dun hate me for asking em to do things

liza says i must delegate my duties
but i am finding it so diff to order ppl around

sigh

and

today PROF SONG ACTUALLy called me name!

haha

a lil excited ya!
since he doesnt really do that!

hiak hiak hiak

if only!

if only someone understands...

I've learned...

i wished u did too.

This feeling kills
not only so,

it hurts
and
annoys

now tell me who really knows!



WANNABE SPICE GIRLS

this is so cool!
Brings back damn lots of MEMORIES YEA!

THIAM LENG AND EMMA BUNTON

is it me or it's her...

took over, ended up being super occupied thruout

the only time i managed to sit and chat was BREAK!

Not very happy with how it was passed over
doubt she knows whats going on
cuz she was giving me bits and pieces of info
and i think her shift ended with her still unsure of many things

and i felt she was not very auto to certain things
nvm she floats
nvm she is new

but at least show me ur enthusiasm or sth la!

sigh...

a colleague says it does not matter to her what shift and who's she on with
she nv bothers checking

but it hell matters to me man!
like in such instances,
well

its not like there is so many unfinished business
but
she led me into a blurry state
where she is blur
and i get irritated
and annoyed
cuz i am led to think that its messy
and i got her mess to clear
and i got to figure out stuff myself.


enough of her...
and work...

finally managed to talk hanz into leading HEALTH LIFESTYLE With me

but
we have got really inconsiderate friends
we had pizza
and midnight supper that day


and
i desperately need to shed some kilos man
i am putting on back all that i lost when i went back to sch
its not like i am happy working

but
i find it a stress relieving activity
to eat
and enjoy GOOD FOOD

SINCE we are already so stressed up and worn out

my goodness
i am making an effort
which i sort of started early this week

but had supper twice
bleah!


HELP...

i know i will put on alot more
when i go TAIWAN next year JAN
and

its gonna be cny
hate it if the relatives comment like

WOW
what happen to u
wow u put on bla bla

sibei sian lor

PhotoFunia

after introducing the silly yearbook to the peeps at work,

i got intro-ed to another fun
by Ain,

PhotoFunia!!!







procrastinating yet again
had arranged to hit the gym with HANZ
but i excuse myself with backache and being tired...

arghhh

nevertheless
trying really hard nowadays to keep a healthy lifestyle
those chronic diseases can be really scary
the thought of hitting them at young age scares me

forcing myself to have a healthy eating habits
force myself to drink milk, not my fave drink...

force myself to have frequent bowels movements
and

i guess exercise too!

energized?

i was tired mentally after work yesterday
like i always did, i slept little on sleeping day
in order not to disrupt my usual sleeping pattern

hung out till late tho
watched a movie- Coffin at cine

i hardly watch movies there
and i seldom patronise the place i did in my teens
and it has changed so much
i go there only for dining thats all

the entire level 8 is so revamped
with those interactive games like WII to rent...
cool
and u get private rooms to watch dvd!!

how cool is that yea!

anyway
its a nice place
shall head down there one fine weekday
and chill the entire day!


quite a few things happened during my nite
not exactly sure if its true
but
rather convincing

and the 3 nites were chilly
it was withdrawal syndrome VS hallucinations VS eerie...

thankfully it has ended!!!!

i sort of just woke up for the day man!

KILL ME PLEASE!

I am so glad this shift is coming to an end!
my working colleagues are killing me man!

ARGHHH!!!!

Counting down to 7am!~~!!!~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!