explains it all...

totally upset, demoralised, humiliated and wronged! OL' BITCH! MOTHER FUCKER LAO CB...
ITS HARsh but who's harsher!
i dun owe u anitin...
i regretted my decision!

UNTITLED

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

girl's best frens...

diamonds!!! e bling bling and e sparklezzzz! ARent they attractive... best frens indeed no doubts abt tht! Went ard scoutin 4 a potential solitaire ... wanna get myself one whn i m more financially stable... a gift 4 myself...
lotsa info and DETAILS DEspite being such small stones... but its reali beautiful!

i wish...
he will propose to mi w a big big sparkling exquisite solitaire as big as those we see on tHE BACHELOR! WAHAHAHA

WEll thts just a dream.. wad more i dun even noe who he is...
he he

"Look What You've Done"

"Look What You've Done"

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won

Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

poor us

i was shocked but i noe i m happie, but its just too hard 4 us to decide... so much so we wanna commit... so much so we wanna live happily ever aft.... somehw we r still afraid...

afraid to anticipate...
afraid to dream on...
afraid to strt
and so afraid to fall helplessly deep!

u and i noe its hard...
u and i noe it cld lead us to nowhere...
u and i r helpless...
u and i feel so dumb but
u and i cant help it...
u and i can onli leave it as it is...

weird...

i m feelin kinda weird again.. goin bk to wrk. Evn though i hv wrked there 4 such long time b4 i quit, this time rd it just feels diff maybe becuz my clique r no longer there and the rest r just superficial accquaintance cum colleagues... haiz kinda sad actuali and nw i dun reali look 4ward to wrkin everyday...

well wished u were here... this reali means sth man! I missed ur tortures and wicked pinches and ur lame jokes plus weird tastes! OUCH ... arghhhh

overwhelmed emotions...

fyi... its rainin heavily nw and i think its affectin most areas in singapore... this kinda of weather topped up w some slow jazz or slow music... reali make mi think alot...

is it lonely? i dunno... its some kinda feelins tht i m somehw unable to describe... but my heart aches which i dunno y? Its nt tht i m heart broken or sth but its just some weird fuckin feelin tht i simply dunno hw to say... topped up w some sms a fren of mine sent... it reali makes mi think alot again... i wanted to take a walk hm frm the mrt station but it was rainin too heavily so i had to take a bus. I wanted to walk and @ the same time be in deep thots... i wann athink abt alot of things evaluate myself and think abt wad is happenin ard mi but too bad... i will prob do it b4 i slp tonite.

on the bus i kinda understood y i m always thinkin abt the past and reminisin... my past had been a past and wad ever probs i encounter r resovled or dissolved... and rt nw i think maybe i m just tryin to run away frm some probs which i haven reali find the soln yet... i guess i need a hug nw badly... one who has reali wide chest 4 mi to lean on and if i do cry... a shoulder 4 mi. I m doin wad the song says dun cry out loud just keep it inside and learn hw to hide my feelins and i m doin it but i reali yearn 4 a broad comfy chest 4 mi to lean on at times... maybe i need a man...

i hv thinkin alot abt the miseries relationships caused and the kinda i m missing u so badly feelins yet u r too far away or i need u badly yet u r nt mine or u r nt here... damn maybe thts wad makin feel so fuckin dwn... i duno if i k i will very much hope everyone k leave nw and i shall cry out loud!