yeah!

OT posting has finally come to an end... an early end i must say cuz we were released at 1230--> clap hands!!!

well well well... hated this posting to be frank... felt useless @ MOT... whn i hear ppl complaining tht they onli scrubbed 2 cases 4 tht day and it was sooooo little but wat abt mi... i scrubbed 0 cases in the entire wk and nt even a full time circulating nurse! I cldn put the lil knowledge i gt frm sch into use... and all i did was posing... by the way is pouring normal saline, pushing bed and helping surgeons adjust their slippin dwn oily glasses is considered an achievement... sometin tht i actualli practised!

Guess i will nv choose this speciality... nurses at the hospital r nt frenly at all... they dun care abt ur presence and they consist majority frm... PRC! And the perceptors in charge of us nv wrked w us at all, nv talk to us the entire wk nt even b4 marking our books... the onli interaction-- givin bk our diaries and askin if we r interested in joinin em! Wat the! One moment she was tellin my AN fren tht she regretted joinin OT cuz she lost all her bed side nrsing skills... nw she onli knows hw to be a scrub and circulating nurse and the nxt moment she is tellin us hw great this speciality is! And guess who gt the highest marks??? The gal who evaluated tht OT POSTING IS THE BEST POSTING AND I WILL LIKE TO COME BK AND WRK HERE! Furthermre she is someone who dun stick to her assigned theatres! Well well well they reali r desperate 4 staffs ya!

Nevertheless... i dun reali care abt the marks... cuz i m reali happie i hv ended this COLD posting( referrin to both the temp and the ppl) IS tht the way to lure and attract more staffs if u treat student like this...? NVM...

haPPie NEW yr my frens! 2004 is endin in a few hrs time... here we r welcoming 2005 and at the same time, sch is strtin on mon! NR0210 students may we make full use of the final 7 wks we hv in sch... cuz we will nv hv the chance to study together in the same classroom animore... sob sob! NR0210 rox and we will rock thru the 7 wks!cya

tired

w the attachments and all... plus my prt time job, i m reali tired... i feel so worn out... had to wrk like 7 days a wk... no rest no free time nothing! I m reali tired... i feel tht nt onli i m deprived of slp.. i m oso neglecting my frens... they complained tht all i have in mind is wrk wrk and wrk nothin else! Sorry frens... i dun mean it...

well... alwiz onli had a job onli in the hols... but this is the 1st time i actualli stayed on a prt time job 4 so long... come to think of it... its funni hw i started wrking... a fren wanted badly to wrk... we sortta went 4 interviews together and gt in... she left aft 4 days and hre i m touchin half a yr soon! But somehw i reali gtta noe many interestin ppl... and happie to say many whom i clique w! We had joy and we had fun... and we had times whn we r all in bad mood and still overcame... things strted turnin wrse but somehw the grp of us stood together and fought thru... nt 4 gettin the poor manager...

many a times reali wanted to leave bt i tot of em.. hw badly they nided staffs... but i m reali tired...

talked to em abt my thoughts... asked mi to think abt it... i tot abt it yet, they din wanna accept...

plssssss gimme a brk k... i m realllllllllli tired le... so so so tired... just grant mi 4 once willl u???

i m tired...

HOpe, StrEngth and cOuraGE...

many a times... we let chances slip off just like tht... y? Becuz we lack of the strength and courage! There ppl who think lowly of emselves cuz they simply lack of the above mentioned factors!

will i ever be blessed w the courage to confess my feelings... and the strength to accept wadever fact thts presented to mi? WEll i doubt so...

gimme the strength, courage! Give mi hope too... cuz i reali lack of these...

well well....

MAny thanks

Today is xmas... merry xmas! Thanks 4 all the pressies i gt... i reali liked my stuffs this yr...
Gt a card frm a colleague of mine... m reali happy tht mi being such ignorant k actualli mean so much to others... =) she wrote mi a card and the contents of the card reali warms my heart... thanks... gt a poem on top of a pair of beautiful earrings frm heman... the poem is reali well written! Thks 4 ur hard wrk of sewing the beautiful studs of my initials on the sweater... sth u promised mi! =) thanks.... cat 4 the card written, the ot shoes, the cd! Thnks Nor nOR 4 e shirt even though i hv it le but at least it means great minds think alike! Thanks 4 the mouse pad even though i dun quite get wat the beanie is 4! haha duh!!!~ thanks 4 the countless greetings and smses u sent!

We gt a log cake @ wrk today but mishaps happens yea and the cake was smashed! The smasher was s o guilty tht she broke dwn... no one blamed u reali!!! We dun mind havin nothin left so dun take it too seriously yea...

we human beings r just so ever sesitive and emo tht whn mishaps happened... we cant help it but get upset, affected etc... of crse i m one of em and i dun deny i m quite over at times... i m just wondering whn we developed feelings 4 sth ...we go 4ward, picked up the item and consider buyin it... or we just get it stat... but whn we fall 4 someone... we dun do the same... they are ppl who will do exactly like wad they will do whn they facny an item but at the same time, there r ppl who choose to wait wait and wait... if u r lucky... u k be w someone u reali adored but if u arent... its just too bad...! PPl who choose to wait alwiz hopes 4 miraacles... surprises and wished reality is just as wad they hoped 4... but whn they r tired... they wonder hw long more they hv to wait and frm there we k see frm the msn log ins... many nics actualli mean sth...

love is sth tht is just so hard to understand... u like him/her he sun like u... he/she likes u ... u r nt interested... whn both parties like each other, they have a barrier... if the barrier is another gf/bf... thn u will hv to wait long long! Thts love in my pt of view...

bleahzzzzz

damn i m wrkin afternoon on xmas eve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so shitty! Merry xmas... slient nite holy nite @ a&E resus rm...........~~

HSE

AT first i tot hse was gonna be a fun postin but i was wrong... cux all we do is travel travel and travel... to patients' hse and service em. Well sad to say i was so tired thruout the visits and at times i fell asleep on buses, cars and even while the SN was cleanin the wound and patient's granddaughter pointed to mi and said out loud hey she is slpin! DAMN SO paiseh... but thn i m reali tured prob bcuz of the travellin. Tlkin abt travellin ... i alwiz kena posted to those damn far hospitals or polyclinics and just becuz i m nt bonded! Wad the hell man dun they hv thinkin abilities! The further they send mi, the more unlikely i m goin to wrk there in future! Wad the hell they think it wld be beneficial! Nt at all! tHE damn excuses they give wiil be u r nt bonded or they will insist that singapore is small transportin is ez! Damn so hw abt my transport expenses? I gtta wake up damn super duper early and go out whn ppl r just getin up to get ready! hate it!

Bt aniwae... thats life! i just gtta get used to it... some ppl get away w praises w/o doin much while some wrked hard yet get nothin but scoldins... some ppl r born w a silver spoon in their mouth and they are ppl who simply lurves to boot lick... all sorts la... so wad shall we do... be a dwn to earth person and do wat we deem is right? Probably...

HSE is so tiring and routine... bleahzzz...

back...

he is back... met whn i was 14 and he was 18... lotsa memories w this person... will nv ever 4get him unless i gt amnesia!

we seldom talk to each other aft he left 4 indonesia... came bk once in a blue moon... whn he first went... we will mit up and sms each other evertime but as time goes by this stops and whnever he comes bk its either i dunno or he made empty promises to mit but nv kept his promises...

stop making mi wait!!!

attachments

just finished my 1st wk of postin at a geron ward... compared to med-surg wards, things are done in a slower pace and it is nt too bz procedures are limited... however u get to c lots of elderly ill... rather sad though but come to think of it, its a blessing aldy as they had lived a long life!

had some sort of communication barriers w the old folks... they speak damn chim dialects and i gt probz w cantonese! haiyo... and sometimes whn they r rowdy they tend to get angry cuz u dun understand em! but nevertheless met a few interesting folks... aoverall still a fruitful exp la... and even encountered a violent case! exciting wk...