PRCP

28th march marks the start of PRCP and until today the third day already, i haven been to my ward yet! HEHE having orientation programme nw and some sort of foundation classes whereby they compile like the 3 yrs into three days and emphasizing on impt things like medications etc... gettin rather nervous cuz tomolo will be day one in ward 4 mi and i m new to this hospital... heard its endocrine ward. sounds good cuz i m rather interested in DM , but a pity its nt surgical ward.

i hope things will turn out well 4 mi...

POst exams

post exam... i feel like i'm a party animal man! I din sleep well thru out the exam week and straight away aft the exams, we went PARTYING but thts like the worst place one wld ever choose to club! DAmn the LKK BAR! With all the lao hum gu man.... i rather be in a yuppy pub w all sorts of cheesy younsters than tht! Damn... it happened last good friday and damn its the same this yr! CURSED!

Alot of invitations thruout the week... seems like never ending gathering and it all functions till damn late and i always can onli catches my slp whn its close to dawn but nvm abt tht cuz we dun hv much time to mit up liao... PRCP is just nxt wk and AZHAR is damn worried! Reading his ortho notes while we were out playing pool!

Had many multi racial gatherings recently... nt trying to be racist reali but recently had been hanging out alot w ppl like zila, kamala, azhar, chuyun, james, choonz, once in awhile pong and jingle! and we had great fun reali... hope to continue tht in the weekends of PRCP... but azhar pls dun carry ur book out!

6 more weeks, and i will be unofficially a graduate if nyp nursing... unfficial SN but damn i m reali nervous... dun think i m up to it! But thn again a prt of mi reali wants to excel and be one reali efficient one... I m like at the cross roads... i dunno where i shall start and wad i shall do... i reali m in dilemma.. choice of hospital? field? will they want mi??? Damn getting rather worried but i hope everything will turn out well... i reali hope and nt onli for mi but for the rest too...

off nw... badly need a rest!

POst exams

post exam... i feel like i'm a party animal man! I din sleep well thru out the exam week and straight away aft the exams, we went PARTYING but thts like the worst place one wld ever choose to club! DAmn the LKK BAR! With all the lao hum gu man.... i rather be in a yuppy pub w all sorts of cheesy younsters than tht! Damn... it happened last good friday and damn its the same this yr! CURSED!

Alot of invitations thruout the week... seems like never ending gathering and it all functions till damn late and i always can onli catches my slp whn its close to dawn but nvm abt tht cuz we dun hv much time to mit up liao... PRCP is just nxt wk and AZHAR is damn worried! Reading his ortho notes while we were out playing pool!

Had many multi racial gatherings recently... nt trying to be racist reali but recently had been hanging out alot w ppl like zila, kamala, azhar, chuyun, james, choonz, once in awhile pong and jingle! and we had great fun reali... hope to continue tht in the weekends of PRCP... but azhar pls dun carry ur book out!

6 more weeks, and i will be unofficially a graduate if nyp nursing... unfficial SN but damn i m reali nervous... dun think i m up to it! But thn again a prt of mi reali wants to excel and be one reali efficient one... I m like at the cross roads... i dunno where i shall start and wad i shall do... i reali m in dilemma.. choice of hospital? field? will they want mi??? Damn getting rather worried but i hope everything will turn out well... i reali hope and nt onli for mi but for the rest too...

off nw... badly need a rest!

ALMOST HERE

"Almost Here"
(feat. Delta Goodrem)

Did I hear you right
'Cause I thought you said
et's think it over
You have been my life
And I never planned
Growing old without you
Shadows bleeding through the light
Where a love once shined so bright
Came without a reason
Don't let go on us tonight
Love's not always black and white
Haven't I always loved you?


But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears'
Cause you're only almost here


I would change the world
If I had a chance
Oh won't you let me
Treat me like a child
Throw your arms around me
Please protect me
Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered how it hurts
Haven't I always loved you


But when I need you
You're almost here
And I know that's Not enough
But when I'm with you
I'm close to tears'
Cause you're only almost here

Bruised and battered by your words
Dazed and shattered now it hurts
Haven't I always loved you

But when I need you, you're almost here
(Well I never knew how far behind I'd left you)
And when I hold you, you're almost here
(Well I'm sorry that I took our love for granted)
(Now I'm with you, I'm close to tears'Cause I know I'm almost here)
Only almost here

i'll accept it...

i've come to my senses tht its no point tryin hard to try and communicate w others when there is simply no sparks...

i've tried and you've tried... but we just cant get out of the circle... You've tried hard by always initiating... you've tried hard by always kicking off... i tried hard to go on... i realli tried... but somehw it always stops there! Just a little more but we still came to a halt...

Haiz so much so i realli wanna carry on... so much so i reali yearn to know more abt you... But i dun think it will ever work... r we too "alike" or r we too "unlike"... damn thts tough...

aNIwae thanks 4 ur time... thanks 4 always checking out if i m doin well... thanks 4 letting mi share, if onli it can be so simple...

this is nt meant to be sad reali... its just wad i learnt...

last day...NR 0210

Recieved a email frm maslinna's multiply. She posted the lyrics for Vit C's graduation....emotions overwhelmed mi outta sudden. Its just too sudden for mi to come to reality tht tomolo will be the last day of sch... haiz.... aFT 3 yrs of enriching joruney we r parting ways... in the three yrs my 1st tut grp wasnt tht fantastic reali and sorry to say tht... NR 0210 is the one tht i will remember and reminisce.

Started out as a grp who is so nt cooperative to one who makes funni noises nw and thn, clapping unneccessarily. OMG i M gonna miss all of u! Our common enemy DR ??? and our common idol Kamala... us fighting hard tht we R nt the Key Noise makers in the lect hall... Horny bitch she sure was! SIR I M SCARED! Nvm abt her! Remember us practicing hard for the I BELIEVE segment and the rest dancing along the PRETTY WOMAN song thts just so memorable! The zest we held on stage was marvellous! Even though there were a few unwilling ones still many obliged and we were a GRP! I believe i can lalala... humming along the music nw! We were enjoying ourselves! GRace even went up despite Her leG injury! Thumbs up 4 her man!

Clinical labs... hehe... :p guilty lei! Mary Ang must be reali relieved tht it was onli FRI nights tht she taught us! Us playin the game and stood still in her class... magaret au taught baby bath and the head flew out! WAHAHA... oF crse SHE exposed JAMES' pubic hair! LOLZ... RESUSITATION! OMG! Hell lot of fun and noise! ATTN ALL MEDICAL STAFF CODE BLUE!!!! Monica sure acted well as a patient! Defib... clear clear clear!

All these memories will be kept within mi 4 life... whn i think back of my school life in NYP everyone of u will be remembered by mi as...

Wendy- ANG = RED! Broad smile!
Florance - Nice, Motherly
Haixia- FOREIGN BODIES, LATE companion, High spirited
ChenYan- My dear old neighbour! bus 265! Warm, jovial, bubbly... patient and comical!
Pony- Soft spoken, photographer, XIAO MA
Peifen- Confident, gd presenter!
Xiuhui- Quiet, choir gal...
Cheryl- "ON", ez going... lobang queen!
Hosay- Voluptous! Red lips! "Hey PPL!!!" Efficient!
James- CRAp, dandruff...nemesis, eloquent, runner
Jingle- Her name~ haha, Realli friendly and helpful!
Kamala- Conscientious, BOOBastic, gd confidant
Shuzhen- LEADER, enzyme-pepsin? Sporty and NPCC
Ruili- Pretty, firm...
Senqi- Soft, hardworking
Pei Xuan- Mi la haha NOISY...
Ziyu- elegant, talented.
Maslinna- RAI! Bollywood, marks and spencer! DAncing queen! fast worker! Keen learner.
Nadia- Sweet...DEMURE, DOLL MAKER... haha
Sze Choon- quiet bitch haha, kancheong, but still My best friend!!
Azhar- STAT! arab music... red cross @#$% Vulgar but Smart! KNowledegeble... fun
Zila- TB! DA BEN DAN! HOt chic! Style! Her hair... and silat
Nur- Vroom Vroom... confused... petite yet biker babe! Cool!~
PONG- bLUR, LAte... estacy! Super Duper CUTE! Funni responses... joy to others, Optimistic!
Siti- her vocals! Perfume smell! Delifrance Tak sedap!
CHuyun- sleeping beauty! Beautiful. Laughters, Vibrant!! Creative ideas! Great companion and BEST buddy.
Grace- her bf! DAMN sexy! Whooh hoo! Gungho.
PengLiang- intelligent, READILY offers help whn asked... his eyes!
Xiajing- JING JING** tall! Independent and mature!

i will nv 4get u guys... i will miss u all...
ALL THE BEST IN UR FUTURE ENDEAVOURS!
GOOD LUCK MY FELLOW GRP 10 CLASSMATES...

sing along to the tunes of I BELIEVE ONCE MORE...

They said you wouldn't make it so far a a

And ever since they've said it its been hard

But never mind that night'cha had to cry

CAuse you had never let it go inside

You worked real hard and you know exactly what you want and need so believe

And you can never give up

You can reach your goals

Just talk to your soul and say

[Chorus:]

I believe i can

I believe i will

I believe i know my dreams are real

I believe i can

I believe i will

I believe i hold it soon man

That is what i do believe

Your fools are justes singing, your soul aha

And you know that your moves will let them show

You keep creating pictures in your mind

So just believe they will come true in time

It will be fine leave all of your kiss and stress behind and

Just let it go

Let the music go inside again the pain

It just start to believe

[Chorus]

[Rap passage]

At third my yet what people say

Hold your head high and turn away

With all my hopes and dreams I will believe

Even though it seems it's not for me

I won't give up, i'll keep it up

Looking to the sky

I will achieve on my knees

will always believe

[2x chorus]

My Dearest!

so nice to meet up w my dear old buddies... 3 weeks may seems shrt but we do miss each other badly!!! EVEN though it was just a simply meal together... and talking over a cup of milk tea... it just seem so nice and warm!

Meeting up has always been so look 4ward! We always recall back the good old days... and end up laughing laughing and laughing... we went thru alot in the past until we seen each other grew up and changed for the better. Even though it was the same old things tht we talked abt, it nv seem boring to us. We simply just love talking abt it! wE Might nt see each other so often, we treasures every meeting opportunities!

There are the ppl who truely understands mi... they are the ppl who truely accepts mi 4 who i am... they have seen mi grow up frm a young and ingnorant gal to someone who is older and less ignorant. I may nt have changed alot and into someone well loved by everyone.. but i m sure they r relieved my frens ought to thank god tht its the new mi tht they noe! They went thru hell w mi... but they forgive and forget. After goin thru the rough patches and misunderstandings it brought our relationship to a even greater heights whn everything is cleared!

I m proud to say we have been great pals since the 90s haha though its nt too far away... we had maintained our frenship for close to 9 yrs and its still goin on great! I love em!!! Absence makes the heart grows fonder! Meeting ups btw is scarce but we grab every mit up sessions and enjoy it!

Well... thanks alot man my dear guaz.. who stood by mi all these yrs... listened attentively to my complaints, shared my sorrows, happiness and hear mi cry! The countless arguments we held made us stronger right! And many more whicjh its simply impossible to name it here!

Eb my great Lao Lim pal who crap w mi, shared my sorrows too... happie moments we shared and always so tolerant and forgiving to my misdeeds!

Hw... we may nt confide as much as i do w the rest i noe u r always there whn i nid u and u noe i m too!

JJ and LP is my bestest frens since sec one day one ya! Love ya two man! YOU GUYS r reali cool

Wrds can nv explain my thoughts but i m glad u r here! Reali!

YEAH!

YEAH! Goodbye to boring saturdays! Cuz my best fren cum companion is bk!!! Hooya!
Pls dun take him away animore~....

amazing...

I had a dream... and i cannot remember the details...
But it seems so real... whn i woke up i saw a sms frm the person i dreamt of! Someone whom i seldom contact!
Amazing lei...

just wanna blog my feelings!

Karma

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
OhNow you're sayin I'm your everything
You're confusing me
What you saying to me, don't play wit me, don't play wit me
Cause....

[Chorus:]
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me cause

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do
No need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you

[Repeat Chorus]

Gotta stop trying to come back to me

[Repeat Chorus]

It's called Karma baby and it goes around

If i aint Got you....

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me


[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

my life...

i'm sorrie if i ever made anione of u sad...
i'm sorrie if we ever argued over silly incidents...
i'm sorrie if i ever did sth tht reali dissapoints u...
i'm sorrie for the countless bouts of tantrum throwing times... i admit i m alil spoilt.
i'm sorrie if i always made u feel tht i m nt attentive, incooperative, incompetent.
i'm sorry if @ times i m too lame...
i'm sorry 4 the times i was Blunt... too blunt

i dun wanna be remembered as someone who possesses all these characteristics...

think of mi as the one who simply refuses to look u in the eye...
think of mi as the one who crap alot!
Think of mi as the one who talks loudly and laugh loudly but in a memorable way ok!!
think of mi as the one who is ever so ON in playin...

my gd points may nt be gD points... but i want all of u to rem mi in a nicer way. Thanks.

Think i m blogging nonsense thn dun read.
U may say wadever u wanna say abt mi but pls dun let it reach my audio field...

confessions: I may nt be a nice person... i ans for my own actions... in life we learned tht everything happens for a reason... it applies to setbacks too.

gonna miss sch...

attended Ms Kamala's class yesterday and whn the lesson sort of ended... all of us sat dwn and chatted w her voicing out complaints... fears and worries and also asking abt Future propects etc. Ms Kamala still is the ever so confident lady w the poise or wad do we call it... she tackled qns professionally and confidently and left us satisified w doubts clear... Remembered her stepping into pur class in yr one and once while learning all abt BP choonz and mi gt scolded by her cuz she tot we were playing but We just cant seem to locate the BraChial PULSE W.T.H! HAHA... but she realli inspired mi whn she taught us in yr 2... she made mi and i m sure most of us beri passionate abt nursing and goin on... =)

went Sakura w AZHAR, T.B(ZILA), CHooNZ( QUIET B****) LOLZ, KAMALA... yak yak and yak and we proceeded to YAKUN and yak again! haha We touched on many issues of life... our fears at moment... hw we first met... future hopes, graduation... so many things... we had joy and we had fun until we were hinted to leave the place! 'POLY STUDENTS' thanks to the tee azhar was wearing... haha but aniwae the place was cursed aft we left cuz IT WAS SO EMPTY... yakun NO MORE!

i noe we were all gonna miss our sch life... frm our boring yr 1 class- just cant cooperate yr 2- the so nosiy yr 3!

while talkin abt some common probs we met up w lately... was pondering on whether we shld do anitin to it... but somehw its bio factor and i doubt it will ever be removed...so be it? i dunno... my concern is i reali cant b bothered...

wad goes around comes ard! Niceeee song.