loser...

i suddenly felt like i am sucha bigh time loser



piling on so MUCH weight
and always being laughed at...

not angry
but a lil inferior...

seeing everyone around attaining an higher status in life...
i am still the same

spending every lil cent i have b4 pay day
and

buying unnecessarily
with the impulsive doings...

no plans for the future...
always at the same point!

arghhhh

this is all killing me!